What really gets on my nerves has nothing to do with anyone else and is quite self-indulgent, so please feel free to stop reading this if you don't care about the Life and Times of Vaftrudner.
Since I came back this spring, after a year of absence, I feel I'm not playing as well as I used to do before. I make stupid mistakes. I go for solos in the wrong places. I fail in getting an ally and judging the other players. I don't read the board well enough. I've played dozens of games since coming back, so I can't blame "Getting back into the groove" anymore. Usually when I'm defeated I'm fine with it, it happens if you take risks, and I hate playing safe. I'm fine with being killed by better players too - it happens when they're better. I only get frustrated and angry when I feel I didn't play as well as I could. And when it happens in game after game, I'll occasionally lash out at another player like I did with Split here. I shouldn't do that. Yes, he is arrogant and unfriendly sometimes, but that doesn't excuse it.
I'm not saying that playing isn't fun anymore. I still have fun, and I enjoyed most of this game. But the underlying bitterness and lack of self-confidence eats away at it. It was completely different when I first ended up in top 50 GR, I was really happy and felt that I deserved it. Now it doesn't feel that way. I need to concentrate on getting better again. I just don't know how. If you have any criticism for any of my games, feel free to tell me. Hell, call me out for being stupid if you want to. I'd appreciate any feedback. I promise I'll listen and I'll try not to be defensive.