I have been a complete an utter jackass. I've been foul mouthed, insulting, in other words exactly the person that I am proud to be. It has come to my attention that this is my reputation in here, and I should be deeply embarrassed -- not because I know, because I've known for a while, but because I continued to act like an asshole despite repeated pathetic counterattacks.

I have no excuse for my behavior.

As I said, I've know that my reputation as a jackass was growing, and one would think there would be a "rock bottom" moment for me. I cannot put my finger on what it might be, since whenever I am suddenly hit with moments of shame for my behavior, I console myself in the fact that it was "all for the lulz."

Further, as Eden, jmo, centurion, and others have indicated that I'm known as a player who ascended to the upper ranks by winning games where there were CD's, poor opponents, and just plain old dumb luck. I'm sure this is the case as I am usually VERY sensitive to this issue, but since I don't give a rats ass, you can all go bugger yourselves. I try to be as rude as possible in the forums often even before anybody bothers to speak with me at all. This has been and will continue to be a point of contention between me and every other butthurt assclown onthe forums.

Lastly, I guess I'm known as a player that somehow manage to win, draw, or survive in the most insulting manner possible. Ghug got on me early on about that. I put in minimal effort winning marginally challenging victories over players who by all rights should have beaten me, and I got all of you under control. Honestly, I just love to fuck with people so much that I want to trollolol all the time, and I start in on people who might be underserving in an internets who gave a flying fuck. Again, I am not now, nor will I ever be, sorry. I know how much it pisses people off. Obviously I cannot be as good as I seem as I have only 10 games under my belt. It is always my intention to win a game once I've started. But, since I only play PPSC, I'll cheerfully throw a victory to some other asshole if it gives me a point-gain survive - it does happen from time to time -- especially when there is a CD and the other.

I am not ashamed of any of these things, but I truly do love this game and am so thankful for a forum filled with lolcows with heavy udders just beggin to be milked. None of you chumps deserve to be in the same game as me. I think I should take a hiatus, maybe try and find a real challenge somewhere where there is actual competition. I have shamed you all, and the game of diplomacy itself.

Please accept my hearty fuck off.

Your pal,

-YJ