Mapu is a funny guy!!
First off, I just can't figure out gunboat, it's against my nature, the thought process... I can manage, some parts, but certainly not one of my greatest strengths...
As far as F2F, I'm clearly below average by any definition, outside of our Boston get together, but that was just because I had a bit of clout with the webDippers...
Even in press games here, I always feel like I don't really know what I'm doing... When I say that, people think I'm being patronizing, but I just thought of an example that might help me explain. The first full game of diplomacy I ever played was on webDip. Somehow I knew about The Diplomacy Pouch, so when I got a great power, I read about opening moves. I did this for all of the first ten games I joined, got a bit of insight about each great power for each game, which was helpful for the first few years of each game, but after that I didn't really "know" what I was doing. I didn't know any stalemate lines, I didn't know what a Lepanto was or even what a Juggernaut was. That said, I won everyone one of those first ten games I joined. So, I didn't really feel like I knew what I was doing, but I was getting results, and the results sort of speak for themself regardless of whether or not it makes any sense in my brain of limited understanding.
As far as being underwhelming, I had a hunch after I won the first ten games I joined on this site that there was no way for *me* to live up to any expectations of what I did, and that I would underwhelm *everyone* as long as I played on this site. That said, goldy, when is the last time you were in a game and put all your time and energy into convincing two or three people that the absolute highest priority for all of you was to team up and make sure to kill off the underwhelming guy? When I won those ten games, we didn't have anon games, everyone could see my profile, and believe you me I got more than one triple and even quadruple teamings that started from the pre-game and saw me die and 1903 and 1904, so perhaps I felt a need to react to some of the attention I was drawing, but I digress.
Another underwhelming stat, it's been nearly three years since I won a press game, 22 games and counting. How sad is that? TheWizard, THM and uclabb win all the time, which clearly suggests they are much better than I am, and for sure wins are what matter... Still, my GR has been steadily dropping for all of that three years and I'm still ranked #1 overall, which isn't really underwhelming... My all-time best GR of 1039 is 1/3 again as high as second best, which in all honesty seems like a very big gap. I know GR isn't the end all and be all, but again, those numbers sort of speak for themself regardless of how inept I may be at getting a solo.
Another underwhelming feat of mine was at Boston F2F. On Saturday, Babak got a solo against six players that all failed to qualify for the final table Sunday. Regardless, extremely impressive, something I could not imagine ever pulling off F2F. For me, when I joined Babak at the final table, I as Austria was facing a pre-game triple alliance (IRT) that formed to immediately eliminate me from the game. I did manage to top that final board, which I am still quite proud of, which had none of the glitz and glam of Babak's solo, but in the end it does speak for itself.
Sorry to go on and on, sort of fun to reminisce, especially since I likely won't be playing too much in the near future, having a 4.5 month old growing older every day... I may not be the best, and I may be underwhelming (especially in my own eyes), but when I step back and think about some of the things I have accomplished, some of them simply speak for themself.