Let me take a second to be clear:
I was first interested in SoW as either a TA or a student. For sake of making the thing work, I was made a student and had no issues with that.
I was somewhat disappointed to draw a country I like and do fairly well with, but thought I would make the best of it regardless. I've engaged with my TA on many occasions and have read Tru Ninja's great analyses. I've also invested myself fully in diplomacy and have played the game as I would any other. Save for that one missed phase...
I still can't explain that one: it's a mix of being too busy to properly play and misreading the clock. It's never happened to me before (with the exception of a half-missed phase the week before or so).
I tried my best to come back from that mistake and have engaged in much diplomacy again. I don't mind that I'm far behind on this game, I don't mind that it may not be my best. I wish it could be different, but this is what it is, it's my fault, and I will do my best on it.
Having said that...
After such a long pause so early in the game, returning to my positions in a game which didn't exactly fit with my expectations is a bit much. I'm mostly losing interest because I have great games going on that excite me a lot more, and this one has absolutely no rhythm and, consequently, I've lost my feeling of the table.
Call me metaphysical or overly sensitive about it, but as far as I'm concerned, rhythm and feel are as much a part of Diplomacy as tactics are. And that is the reason why my interest in this particular game is dwindling.
Now, if a sub is ready and willing to play my part, I'm more than happy to give my place to someone who needs it. If none are available, or if it's too complicated, I will honour my engagement and play this game as I would any other: win first, draw if you must, survive in the worst case scenario.
Do not mistake my lack of interest for a lack of honour.