Alright. Look. I am trying really hard to stay calm and not storm away. I did that before and that was not only poor play of me but it was stupid. I ignored you for several hours yesterday wj.
Want me to be honest right now? I think I mentioned it somewhere before EOD yesterday but I can't be bothered to find it out.
Honestly, I don't care if this gets out, because it will anyway and I don't want this following me into M15.
I have been exaggerating my behavior. Playing up my scummy aspects as much as I could after M11. I didn't even have to try hard, apparently just being me with some slight emphasis is very scummy. Hell, I have been mentioning M11 so much just so that I could be compared to the clueless and talkative townie that I was in that game. I started cussing more in Live games just so that I would have an excuse to do so in here. I have been acting especially scummy and uncertain and whatever the fuck else I have been doing just so I would appear to be Espi and wouldn't get NKed on night 1 for appearing to be playing differently, as I was in M13. I have been trying to bait people into voting for me. I was able to clear ghug and bo, mostly, because they recognized that. I thought I was able to town clear Yoyo too. ND I knew would tunnel on me and he would likely only do that if he was town, you I didn't expect. I have been greatly annoyed with you for going after me so hard and yes I think that is you playing poorly, but I thought that scum would just watch people vote for me and that would be who I should target. Let people think I am scummy, make myself into an easy lynch and then boom, at the very end I come out guns blazing and we win, simple as that. My plan obviously hasn't worked.
When I melted down earlier, part of it was because you were going after me so hard when I didn't expect it, and part of it was because I thought you and ND would lose the game for us. It was exaggerated. 2 hours ago I was completely calm, now I still am somewhat calm but this is grating at me.
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Everything I have done has been me being natural, but exaggerated for effect. If I was somewhat confused I would act fully confused, if I was annoyed I would act enraged. I did this thinking some town would bite on the easy lynch, some town would town-read me and mafia would sit back and add in every now and then, but they wouldn't actively participate.
You just said that you were willing to let me go, for now. This is me being honest and saying something that I recognize will be read once more as completely scummy, but also completely me for once this game. Take from it as a scum-slip or as town-slip. I can't keep fighting you wjessop, I just can't. I am not voting for you or Yoyo although I am not giving up the possibility that you are scum either.
Now, I am too amped up to go to sleep, but I need a break. I am going to go watch some Netflix. If you want to talk calmly about this without pointing fingers I will be more than happy to, just please stop going after me for just a bit. I likely won't be around much this weekend, you can get me lynched then when I can't defend myself.