MAFIA 45 GAME THREAD - BETWEEN A ROCK AND A...ROCK

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worcej - Was super emotional and is now just silent. no leadership. no signs of frustration anymore. Hes just doimg nothing now. scum

claesar - Town. for the fact he stuck to a tunnel from early on about ezio. I dont think Claesar is very with it, as far as meta. he just goes for people he knows and I think isnt very sure whats even going on.

moscow - Nonexistant?

damo - Very off and on whatever is popular. buzzes around, and acts like the fonz.

xorxes - I dont think hes town. He should have a number of scumreads and he doesnt.

flavius - I dont think he understands how to play. so ill just go with null for lack of fear of expressing opinion. Thats semi towny.

yavuz I really dont see why hes town. hes treating my flip with such caution and TMI.that hes probably scum

bozo. the level of digging your doing is towny inherently. but its also just beating a dead horse. we already know im anti town. and me being anti town is pretty much just a symptom of my disdain for this community. And yea im butthurt at losing twice as scum. but being willing to suicide is how I always play. im a very fatalistic person. You dont know me. you dont really understand me. the fact yoir excited to unearth what you think are smoking guns on me is pretty good though.

[damo666]

Xorxes has been very inactive.

Lynch him.

Of the remaining players, Moscow, bozo and Cleasar have been less active than me, and rivera about the same. Why me specifically among all of these?

I think you would have been NK'd if you were town. However your recent posts have been very towny and I'm now confused.

[damo666]

We have no town clears. no leadership. no cases worth following. no voice anyone trusts. and the skill players decided not to try to play.

the scumteam is trollkilling at this point for how lackluster we are.

im fine with a town concede and just try again with a fresh game where we have a chance

What makes you think Durga was a trollkill?

because she was very highly and widely scumread, he reads were almost nonexistant. and in general she was next up to be lynched. the only person with any motive to kill durga there would be someone having a hell of a lot of fun watching players look dumb.

as I have previously pointed out day 1 VCA pointed to a town durga

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Jamie - I think this can be from either wheelhouse he has. the fact he did some ISOs is probably towny. I dont think hes able to be as moody as scum and as petulant.

Rivera - It kinda depends on xorxes. If xorx flipped town this guy needs to die.

dargorygel- hes the only person ive felt was town from spectating to now. I had a moment of just wanting to pressure him. I genuinely think hes town and worcej flip would be. full clear on darg if worcej is scum
if xorx flips scum darg is also cleared in vca.

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I guess that folks want me to stop posting and just go ahead and die. so Ill be leavin now.

[damo666]

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so this is what were doin?

[FlaviusAetius]

If we find out you are town, then we pretty much discovered who is mafia, and thats all we need

[dargorygel]

@xorxes
You asked if I was voting you because of your absence... which is a reasonable question, and I understand the assumption.
But not really. (Although it didn't help your shading...) I understand RL business, as much as anybody.
But my vote is presently on you because of a meta issue. I usually find you erudite and clear. I am often willing to sheep you because you make sense to my mind.
In your postings, you don't seem to have the same focus.
That seems to me a scumtell for you. And it breaks my heart.

I think your teammates are either jamie, and one of worcej/vapor. I even imgaine that the team plan was to distribute yourselves along the 'posting' ratings. Jamiet at the high end, worcej/vape in the middle, and you at the low end.

[dargorygel]

@everyone
IF there were guns in this game...and IF you had one, who would you shoot?

I would (no offense,man) shoot worcej. His flip would clear Jamiet... and we could analyze his connections, defenses, attacks, and loose change.

[dargorygel]

I would also shoot teacon07... because I see him watching the game instead of playing.

[brainbomb]

when I was about 3 years old I remember my mom left during a really bad storm and she didnt want me to go. I recall seeing this incredible terrifying lightning and this ridiculous feeling of being isolated was so numbing.

most of my life ive been a little bit of everything. I was very good at putting together puzzles at a young age. my parents wanted me to put the US Atlas together for visitors. And I was very fast. I knew geography very well.

By the time I was in school I was struggling. I didnt get along with anyone. I talked to myself. My imagination and hyperactivity made me a class clown and a loner.

I finally grew up, did all the high schooler stuff. had lots of girlfriends, rode my bike everywhere. went to every prom and homecoming. I was a shit student. had a 1.8 GPA and found everything totally pointless. I finally found out I liked Art and Acting.

I flipped a coin, went to college, got a degree in Acting and writing plays. After I graduated I became a drunk and moved back in with my parents at 22. no plan.One day I woke up and had two paths before me. I could move back to my college town and pursue a relationship with a mormon girl I really loved. Or I could move to Saint Louis and pursue a masters in Art.

So I chose Art. And put about every ounce of myself into the program, was a middle school teacher for a while. Lived with my sister. Waited tables at joes crab shack. I got fired. And got another server job. got fired again. Finally I got a job at this pizza place/bar that no longer exists. ironically all of those restaurants went under. By the time I graduated I had no jobs. and a masters in painting. once again, moved back home

lived with my parents at 27 this time. parents were divorced by now. I painted. met a girl from scotland. fell in love. we long distance dated about 6 years. or more. It was never stable and we were both drunks. had all these really crazy dreams of being married. Eventually I got a job teaching. got a DUI. thrown in jail. and eventually lost my job teaching because my methods werent what they liked.

So I got a job at subway
then a job as a paralegal
then a server
then a teacher again in Missouri. And this time I was a lecturer at missouri state.

during my time as an adjunct I was dirt poor. 125,000 in loan debt. criminal record
single
living with my sister and her 2 kids.

in 2015 I discovered forum mafia on webdiplomacy. and it became a place where all my failures in life were irrelevant. I found a game that was gratifying, satisfying and time consuming. It felt like I was supposed to be playing mafia. Like I was here to make it fun. I took the hobby so far and so intensely that eventually it was more fun for me than Art. because it wasnt about a paycheck. getting things right in mafia was a sign I was a higher being as far as awareness and intellect.

So my other hobby of being a drunk decided to join forces with my mafia hobby
And in Spring of 2016 I was signed up to run my own game. I sat down every night with yoyo and fluminator balancing a setup. M20. We poured endless hours into planning. retooling, and balancing. We had this great new 3rd party. we had a pitchfork suicide item you could use in situations im in right now.

the game was great

about a week before game start I got very intoxicated and pissed about a mini game I was in. got into a huge fight with durga and deleted the whole server in a rage. Proceeded to erupt into this gigantic war online. I lost my gm responsibilities, lost my own game. and it actually affected me psychologically.

I went to colorado to try to calm my nerves and heal my broken soul. By the time I came back to home I felt much better. I quit mafia for a while. met a girl. and fell madly in love with probably the worst human being ive ever met. And proceeded to drink myself into oblivion, obsess over her, and she became my new obsession. It wasnt mafia anymore it was her.

and of course I went back to teaching
we if course split up
she got thrown in jail
And I quit the teaching profession in Nov 2016 to move home and try to pursue what I considered to be the most intense love id ever experienced.

Got my own place with 3 bedrooms so she could move herself and her kid in. found out shed cheated with numerous people. and then by new years it was already over again.

So after that, I went back to mafia. Got better at it. Won alot of games and got reinstated as a GM. Went to champs. went to champs again. and finally ive gotten back to the point now where there is nothing left I feel I need to accomplish with this game. Its not a matter of personal pride for me anymore. im 35 years old, I quit drinking, got a job thats financially rewarding. I manage a pie restaurant.

And my new passion in life is storytelling. This was my story.

Thats the real brainbomb. Not a joyful story but a very raw very gritty story about following what you think are your dreams. And fucking shit up along the way.

[FlaviusAetius]

@xorxes
You asked if I was voting you because of your absence... which is a reasonable question, and I understand the assumption.
But not really. (Although it didn't help your shading...) I understand RL business, as much as anybody.
But my vote is presently on you because of a meta issue. I usually find you erudite and clear. I am often willing to sheep you because you make sense to my mind.
In your postings, you don't seem to have the same focus.
That seems to me a scumtell for you. And it breaks my heart.

I think your teammates are either jamie, and one of worcej/vapor. I even imgaine that the team plan was to distribute yourselves along with the 'posting' ratings. Jamiet at the high end, worcej/vape in the middle, and you at the low end.

Im not sure if Im right on this one, but should we really be going off on what people play in previous games? I feel like this could lead to mistakes all day long, people aren't consistent as we think, y'know? I would know, I play webdip with my friends all the time, and just when you think you know what they do, they just change their whole personality

ie; one person always betrays, yet one game didn't betray anyone(and I counted on he doing so)

[FlaviusAetius]

Wow, brain... that's a crazy story
I'm glad everything is going well for you now, must have been a stressful couple of years...

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I recall when I was a professor at Missouri State. I had to actually provide evidence of my job to Jamiet because he insisted only a lackluster school would hire someone as stupid as myself.

Ive been dealing with people like this my whole life. I just give off this vibe that screams hey, be a fuckin douche to that guy.

as a kid people heard I was allergic to sunflower seeds in 1st grade. so they banded together at recess to throw sunflower shells at me covered in saliva.

In middle school people spit on me and called me scuzz

as a grown adult people told me id never do anything as an artist. I did countless shows, taught hundreds of students, painted murals for cafes, and even had my own solo exhibit in the Governors Mansion in 2012.

I went to london by myself and met complete strangers. Painted huge bedsheets with landscapes. And of course it all means a lot to me. It never was gonna mean anything to haters. Haters and doubters are always there.

Ive never stopped meeting skeptics and haters in mafia either.

There are people who think I am just some imbecile with zero intelligence.

[brainbomb]

So TLDR

whats the point of all this. why do we care. its just a mafia game.

well it is. Yes. And a few years ago this game was something I sought refuge at like a holy temple of empathic brilliance. I actually measured my value for a time, on how good I was at mafia because for a while there was not much else going on in my.life that was great.

I dont want to play a game where I have to wow you, rally you, wake you up, lead you, guide you, decipher you, and answer to you.

I wanna play a game where its fun. and people actually play. And talk. and be social. And god forbid we actually build a rapport to where we can read each other.

I dont know any of you other than dargo. Why am I supposed to care about any of you? Why do I care about answering questions that feel trappish in nature.

Why am I supposed to be complicit and docile as you tear me to shreds and offer each other seconds?

why do I wanna keep playing mafia with complete strangers who are unfriendly, not talkative, and just basically talk like the same dickheads ive had to suffer thru all my natural life?

[FlaviusAetius]

I still don't understand how you would like us to play this game better...isn't the point to try to find mafia? We do so with the evidence we've been given and been able to decipher

[brainbomb]

just have more fun. be social. dont be afraid to ask people questions in a manner free from hawkish overbearing tone.

[brainbomb]

but if you think youve caught scum give it some passion.

[Vaporwave]

really hate dentists, they suck more than this vanilla setup